Fighting!

I'm JOBLESS! Ada scroll degree pun, kalau jobless xguna jugak..kankankan??? Huhuhu. Pathetic me being a fresh graduate without any career planning. What have I done in the past three valuable years, ha? Tengok, baru nak sedar apa perkataan "valuable" really means. Pfttt.

Damn, no regret, please!

Everyday makan, tdo, tengok tv, texting bf aku..eh..exercise jap - takut gemuk mode - makan lagi, tido lagi, tengok tv sampai dah nak muntah. All the tv's schedule pun, aku dah boleh ingat. All of them! Gila ar. I am in a seriously envious condition to those who already manage to earn their own money. Sekarang ni, kalau tengok duit merah tu pun, boleh meleleh air liur aku...uwaaaa..

To comfort my own feelings, I told myself 'belum ada rezeki' so many times. And now, I guess my own heart doesn't seem to believe me anymore. It rather says, 'No pain, no gain' to my brain, which obviously change the way I look at myself. Since my final result didn't turn out as good as I expected, I see myself in a different way now. It was such a great wake-up call to me. Maybe I had forgotten to stay grounded and be grateful enough for every kurniaan-Nya. My final result? Nah...I let this one go - easily. No pressure, cos I know I'm not a failure. I had a great years before, gained everything without even have to work hard to earn them. And now, I had to work harder to earn them back. To earn the feelings I had before. To always feel good about myself and make my loved ones proud.

Btw, I really miss my boyfriend. Glad I can call him that after all of the struggles. Despite all the differences, I've decided to work things out between us. Always hoping this relationship will ended with happiness for both of us. Even though marriage is the one last thing I can hope for, I'm glad I love him even more everyday. *blush*