pure marine collagen

Lately, one of my friends keeps promoting pure marine collagen to me. Setelah aku mendengar keberhasilan benda alah nie, dan agak2 aku terpengaruh la dengan all the magical stories aka testimoni pengguna2 lain, so aku decide nak try la jugak. Mana tau kot2 boleh jadi gorjes...magic gitu. Hahaha. Healthier skin, happier me. Aha, tagline siap! Kali ni nak research pasal pure marine collagen ok. Antara benefits collagen adalah menegang, menghalus dan melicinkan kulit yang menjadi penarik utama aku try benda ni selain dari benefits dari aspek kesihatan, of course la kan

But, hey, I'm not gonna write much about all those info. Google sendiri la ek. So motif tulis kat blog? As my own reference la. Blog aku, kannnnn. Last but not least, jom bersama2 ke arah kesihatan yang optimum. Pftt.

*ha...letak pic satu... PURE MARINE COLLAGEN. Sumber: Google.

turning 24

December 6th was my 24th birthday. Looking back on how my life as a 24-year-old should be, I think I'm still a little child inside. Haha. Can't never grow up, ha? I'm not a very successful person either, yet, I don't have any serious commitment aside from living the way I am now. I'm grateful to be alive, nuff said. The only thing I hoped for is that semoga segalanya dipermudahkan olehNya. Amin.

ps: Umo 30 aku nak kek bday 8 tingkat pulak. Set. :)

will not take the blame.

For the past few weeks, we keep fighting over some silly matters i.e. trust issues, boys, exes, social networks etc. Gosh, this has been the main issue since forever! At some point, I just can't take it anymore. If I have a knife, or any harmful things in my hand, I just can't promise that I will never hurt him. Haha. Not funny. But, this time, I don't know if fate's in our side - again!

To him, I'm the one to blame. And at my point of view, seriously it's HIM. Ok. We seemed to blame each other. Fighting like a child.

Huh.

saya pilih mereka

I've voted my favourites. Aku admit, aku biased sikit. 

Aaron Aziz, voted! 

Nadiya Nissa, voted!

Angah RL, voted! 

They got talent, bagi aku la kannnn... Don't judge me! Haha. Anyway, aku sokong our entertainment industry. Even xsegah Hollywood, I'm proud of my country's. Check out this link if you want your favourites to win. So that, xde la banyak bunyi bila orang yang korang xsuka tu menang nanti. Hehe. I'm just saying. Kbai.

Anugerah Blockbuster Astro

my skin is...

I have oily and ance-prone skin. That's why I have to be careful when it comes to skincare & cosmetic products. Tak semua produk kita boleh belasah je. Contoh, dulu aku try macam2 produk, konon nya nak cari yang paling sesuai. Last2, ambik kau...muka aku ni dah macam bahan uji kaji dah...pimple scars  are all over the place. Heh. Then I tried Oxy products, and it somehow cured my acne problems. Okay la jugak sebab scar tu dah hilang. And since I'm in my mid of 20s right now, I'm kinda scared of wrinkles & mula mementingkan healthy skin. Nak muka sentiasa awet muda gitu macam Rozita Che Wan. Hampeh. Haha. So I cross Oxy out. I tried different types of product. At first, try Bio-essence Tanaka White sebab kawan aku cakap muka dia jadi lembut, pori2 pun dah xnampak, halus, dan yang paling penting, aku nampak muka dia macam glowing...tegang semacam je. Huhu..tu yang aku gatal nak try jugak. Biasa la, perempuan. Tapi, the result kat aku macam tak berkesan sangat. Ala, xsesuai la tu. Now, I'm using ZA Total Hydration range. Macam ok je. I hope so. Sales assistant kat kedai tu pun cakap produk ni sesuai ngan skin type aku. Ntah ya ntah tidak. Tengok je la nanti. If it doesn't work out, I will just have to ban ZA too. Fuuuu.

september

September.

It feels like yesterday I left my campus life. Gosh, I really miss the old times. Miss the moment when I had to eat maggi sebab nak save bajet. Rindu saat2 aku bersengkang mata buat esaimen, study, lepak, hanging out...etc...bla...bla...bla.. You know how it feels right? Eleh...we're going thru the same things. Fact.

I remember when I was at secondary school, I kinda hate my life. I hate going to school. I hate my teachers. I hate everything. And you know when the hatred stopped? Once I leave my school. I kinda miss all the things. Mula la rasa nak sekolah balik. Berangan kalau dapat peluang, akan study my hardest konon. I think we all might have the same feelings. Lalui benda yang sama.

And now, I miss my friends. All of them! I have crazy life because my friends are crazy. We always had a good laugh. Even stress pun, selalu je buat stupid jokes, so xde la negatif sangat. Benda tak lucu pun kitorang boleh gelak sakan, lepas tu masing2 terfikir "apsal gelak wei?? It's not FUNNY at all!!". Yup, macam tu la dulu. We're crazier together. Haha. I miss them so much.

I hope I can meet them again some day. I will. I just knew it. Btw, Happy September everyone.

noob

1 thing that people doesn't know about me is that I'm actually a social noob. I got Twitter & Fb account, but do I really connect to those so-called friends? Nope, I don't think so.

Online pun jarang2. Ada bb pun xde subscribe bb pakej. So, duduk je la diam2. I created my fb account simply because my friend asked me to.Twitter? I had it because of the trend. Haha. Jangan xda bak kata orang tek nak. I also bought bb cos that's in my wishlist since I'm 21. Yes, I got one already. Tapi......xde sorang pun member pakai bb jugak..so agak no point la having bbm and stuff. Pft. I will force my friends & family to buy bb also one day. So that boleh la aku bajet generasi Y. Hehe. Nak sangat layan bbm sampai muntah.

So right now, aku memang xde idea nak meracau kat fb or twitter. Status sangat la jarang aku update. Kalau update pun, aku macam invisible. My ex also keeps bashing me out in fb buatkan aku rasa menyampah nak online dah. Personally, aku lebih suka Twitter. Simple. Compact. Bold. And most importantly, I feel safe. There's no one yang boleh cakap aku itu, aku ini di Twitter. Am I right? Jangan ingat kita dah sempurna bila melihat yang lain dengan pandangan yang hina. Ok.

eid

Think it's not too late to wish all Muslims Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri.

Here...I'm eating with all my heart out.

Makan.

Makan.

And makan.

The one thing I realized this eid is my mom's laksa sarawak is the best. Really! *droolling*

hmmm...

We're all in the same game, just different levels. Dealing with the same hell, just different devils.

buka puasa

I went out with my girls yesterday to break fast which lead to an unexpected journey. The big plan to buka puasa together ended up with buka puasa dalam kereta cos somehow we didn't manage to get to any food court in time. Did I mention that we went in a myvi and there are seven of us in the same car?!! Yeah, true story. Muat ok. Sigh.
Before able to chillax and memenuhkan perut, we traveled in a perahu tambang (sebab park keta kat seberang sungai..huhu), arrived at Waterfront and finally had dinner in Parkson shopping complex. Bukan iftar lagi dah, tapi dinner ok. Yeah, true story also.

Rite?? Awesome! Guess betul la kot Oprah cakap "Everyone wants to ride with you in the limo, but what you want is someone who will take the bus with you when the limo breaks down." In my case, perahu tambang. Haha. What a beautiful life. I love my girls damn much. Xoxo.

iklan jap

Sangat annoying ok iklan tu.
The secret facelift blablabla ads.
Yup, that one la.
Suma website benda alah tu mesti nak kena ada.
Header, footer, sidebar.
Aku annoyed sampai xde hati nak tekan.
Nak muntah dah tengok.
Moral of the story?
Sometimes ads can be annoying.
Especially to those yang bukan target market diorang, macam aku.
...
...
Speechless.
Jap.
Apa kaitan aku dengan iklan yang super annoying tu?
Nothing.
Duh. Whatever.
Lalalalalalalala~

so-not-happy-saturday

Bengang. Upset. Today is not a good day eh? There's so much things going on in my life. Kalau benda2 best xpe la jugak, boleh la keep on smiling. Flying in the air punya mode. Tapi, kenyataan nya??? Hampa...oh no! Things didn't go my way- again. Someone, please save my soul. I need inspiration right now.

Facebook, done! Nothing interesting.
Twitter, checked! Not inspired enough.
Gossips? Beautifulnara, Ohbulan, Rotikaya...done. Aren't helping at all!
Friends?? Nope. I'm not in the mood to socialize & laugh at stupid jokes. Pftt.
Boyfriend?? ... He's one of the reasons why my Saturday is not a happy one. FAILED!

Oh ya. You know I pray days & nights, did everything I can just to undone things that happened between me and my bf. And yes. We're an item again. I'm grateful until we keeps argue over some stupid issues. That is when all of this 'bengang and upset' took place. Huh.

Youtube. Tiba2 teringat aritu ngan Got to Dance Uk 3 final stage and my jaws dropped watching Tayluer & Elliot's performance. Touched. Inspired. Goosebumps. That's what I felt watching those dancing fairies. Guess I need that kind of inspiration right now to save my Happy Saturday. Dahla. Aku ok. Kbai.

crave for blog tutorials

Like seriously, blog aku nih dah banyak kali tukar template. Don't ask me why sebab dah sah2 aku memang cepat bosan. There will be a time aku rajin sangat online, blogwalking & update blog aku...ubah sana sini part yang nampak too simple (konon nak blog nampak comel & adorable).

Ewwww...

But, yes, I am a virtual freak yang crave dengan blog tutorials. Eventhough there's nothing interesting in this blog, yet, I still want it to look nice in my eyes. Sebab nih page aku, so sukati aku la kan. Haha.

Till then, I will look forward to many more superb tutorials yang boleh aku apply kan kat blog aku nih. And here, this one is so far the best blog tutor for me. She's awesome...and beautiful too.

amazing spiderman

Dah lama nak blog pasal Amazing Spiderman sebab aritu pegi late nite movies dengan bffs aku. The movie was awesome. Definitely a winner bagi aku yang jarang pegi panggung even sebelum ni aku brag pasal The Avengers. Hey, people change. Haha. Ok, so you know what's the most amazing about this 2012 Spiderman version for me?

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The SUIT!

Nampak effort di situ dowh. Bukankah dia nampak juicy di situ? Haha.

JK. I really love this version of spiderman. It's waaaayyyyyy better than the old ones. Andrew Garfield as Peter Parker? Dem, dia hot ok. Move over Tobey. Aku harap ada sequel & boleh tengok dia gayut2 lagi. :)

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Lemons...lemonads....kind-of-stuff

I'm a not-so-positive-person since ages. And somehow, I'm kinda crave for quotes & sayings that make me have some piece of positive mind, especially when I realize sometimes life's beyond my fairytale fantasies. When life gives you lemons...make lemonade...yeah, something like that. Pftt.

Demm. These helps for now I think sebab aku sesak dah nih.

"We are always looking for something better that we sometimes fail to realize that we already have the best."
"Never let any of your fears or insecurities stop you from living your life."
"Being single doesn't mean you're not too good to be with the right one, it means you're just too good to be with the wrong one."
"Life is good, life is great. Always love & never hate. Break the rules, stand apart. Ignore your head and follow your heart."

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Ramadhan...

To all Muslims out there,

HAPPY RAMADHAN AL-MUBARAK!

Sabda Rasulullah s.a.w:

“Telah tiba kepada kamu bulan Ramadan, iaitu bulan yang penuh keberkatan. ALLAH telah mewajibkan ke atas kamu agar berpuasa pada bulan itu.” ­- Hadis riwayat Imam Ahmad di dalam Musnadnya , hadis no: 9133.

Reply to those excuses. LAME!

Most Muslim girls yang free hair cakap, "kalau bertudung tapi tak ikhlas, tak guna juga."
Er, really? I don't know. Siapalah kita untuk judge.

However, for me this comment wins! *tersentap sendiri*

Okay. But, then again...

 

Nuff said. Haha. Sibuk hal dosa aku sendiri sudah. :)

Thanks Ustaz Azhar Idrus. I adore you.

Cons of blog walking

Tadi, sengaja je aku blog walking. Nak carik blog yang ada tutorial nak bagi mantap blog aku ni. Mantap di sini maksudnya seiring dengan usia tua aku ye. Mantap yang boleh bagi aku rajin keje2 update nih. Hahaha. Bukan comel yang siap ada bling2, kelip2 berterbangan, marquee sini and sana tu tau. Then, terjumpa la satu blog ni. Wah, sangat canteeekkkkk and terbaeeeekkk punya. Huhuhu. Jeles dowh. Aku yang siap study coding2 programming dulu pun tak seexpert tu. Hmmm.

Pastu jumpa blog yang ada madah2 cinta, jiwang2 punya type.

Bahagianya mereka ea. Teringat eh ngan nya. Hampeh! Close tab cepat2.

Kali ni jeles & upset. Aiyooo...

Done. Tak nak dah blog walking!

If it's not meant to be, then it's not meant to be. I know!

Another breakup prove I'm not even close to be the luckiest girl alive. Fuck love. I'm kinda hate to be myself right now. Pathetic! Is there any good and wise man left out there for me? Sebab mostly spesis lelaki baik semuanya taken already. Hampeh. Beruntung lah sesiapa yang dah jumpa their own other half. Sumpah, aku takkan kacau hak orang.

I wrote about him in the blog, bragged like I've found the one. Nah. He's apparently not created for me. We had so much fun together and I really thought this will last at least for a year. We want different things in life and somehow we're just completely two different persons. I like myself when I was with him. Until at some point, I keep wanting more. Like seriously, is this the end of us?? Obviously I blame myself for this breakup. I am a hard-to-please bitch. Rare spesis aku ni. What to do kannnnn. Even so, he finally called it off. I'm losing my boyfriend - again! Baru aku faham maksud lagu Ombak Rindu tu. Pfttt.

Ironinya, aku yang frust gila *lap2 air mata*. Cliche dowh aku mopping around when people left me. It's just the thing that I know how to do best whenever life fucked me harder. :'(

I know I'm stupid enough waiting for him.
Hush! Keep your thoughts to yourself, smart people. I'm literally dying here!

Huh.

...    *speechless*   ...

God, I know I've been asking a lot - way a lot - from You. I'm sorry I just find You when I'm in a mess. I'm sorry for not being a good person. But then again, I keep seeking You asking for more. God, please protect him. Keep him away from fake and untrue people. Bless him with good health and true happiness. If he's not for me, please throw this feelings away from my heart. But if there's still a bit love for me inside his heart, please bring back those feelings just as strong as it used to be. I know I'm asking a lot now. I know if it's not meant to be, then it's not meant to be. I just have faith in You. Nuff said. Amin.

"I'm wanted by some. I'm taken by none. I'm looking at many, but I will wait for one."

Shhhh...

Introvert tu apa? Kalau xsilap, introvert ni adalah scientific name for those yang suka menyendiri i.e have their own inner world of mind. Quite reflected me I guess. Heheh. Tapi, aku pretty sure aku bukan introvert dowh. Well, hey...born as a Sagittarius is definitely loud, cheerful and berdiam diri dalam dunia sendiri is a no-no. Kalau ada Sagittarius cakap dia introvert, trust me..they might lied. Kan ada saying cakap "Never trust a Sagittarius". Well said, peeps. Huh. Eventhough aku believed aku ada ciri2 introvert sebab aku maybe adopted those qualities secara tidak sengaja (hahaha), I'm just not one of them.

Anyway, here's something that I'd like to share about introverts:

1) Introverts are not shy or anti-social.
2) Tend to dislike small talk.
3) Have different manners of socializing.
4) Need time alone to recharge.
5) Socially well-adjusted.

Visit this page to know more about introverts. Takkan la kau expect aku tulis panjang lebar pasal ni dalam page aku kot? Duh.

S.O.S

Life is insane, memang selalunya macam tu la kan? Pftt. Kalau tak insane, xthrill la kot. Haha. I'm not saying that life should be hard to some people. I know our life should be better. Kan banyak peribahasa Melayu yang sentuh pasal hidup ni. Should we just embrace that instead of being negative, am I right? Duh, I'm not sure either. Susah nak instill dalam diri supaya sentiasa berfikiran super positif.

Aku dah sah-sah la envy ngan orang yang selalu positif ni. Diorang selalu nampak kebaikan je, yang negatif diorang tolak tepi. Tapi bagi aku, this is what I called insane. Aku selalu je berfikiran negatif. I just can't help it. Hehe.Sebab tu la kot Allah bagi kesukaran dan dugaan kat aku. Dia hanya nak menguji. Dah memang kerja Dia la kan? I'm grateful for what He had given me.How to save my own soul then? Memang la the most correct answer is doing spiritual stuff like baca Quran, pray, berzikir and so on. I know! Other than perkara-perkara yang dilisted out kat atas, my friends mostly turn to Youtube and social networks. WIN! Is this how to save one's soul in this hi-tech century? Haha.

ps: Check out this lyric vid.

Music sense

I don't have any specific favorite singer. I just know I had some respect for some of them. Good music, great talent..what more can we ask, rite? I like to listen to Bruno Mars, Taylor Swift, and Adele. And recently I'm kinda reserve some respect to our local singer/songwriter, YUNA.

One of my bff, Fiefiey Radieylla rasanya agak crazy la about Yuna. She went to Yuna's gig long time ago. Based on her, Yuna xla famous pun at that time. I think she feels like she's one of the Yuna's earlier fans. Just kidding, sis! Hahaha. Becos of that one little gig la, she realized Yuna's talent lebih awal kalau nak dibandingkan dengan penulis. Eh, aku la tu. Tett.

When one of my friend ask me to listen to Dan Sebenarnya during 2009, my reaction at that time was,
"Bolehla. Her voice macam...er, okayla.. Best. Next song boleh??".
......
But then, when I heard Cinta Sempurna, it was really an eye-opener for me. Penakut somehow kinda relate dgn jiwa raga aku. Wow...Yuna is a great talent. No wonder la she got huge fans. She's smart and unique. Her image is so original. And she's really successful in the States. I'm not one of her huge fan, not even I'm in her fan club, but I can say that she's obviously a great singer/songwriter. She makes us Malaysian proud with her own way. Bravo, Yuna.

THIS POST IS NOT BIAS. Huh. Eventho it is dedicated to her (bukan Yuna bha). Hehehe.

Fighting!

I'm JOBLESS! Ada scroll degree pun, kalau jobless xguna jugak..kankankan??? Huhuhu. Pathetic me being a fresh graduate without any career planning. What have I done in the past three valuable years, ha? Tengok, baru nak sedar apa perkataan "valuable" really means. Pfttt.

Damn, no regret, please!

Everyday makan, tdo, tengok tv, texting bf aku..eh..exercise jap - takut gemuk mode - makan lagi, tido lagi, tengok tv sampai dah nak muntah. All the tv's schedule pun, aku dah boleh ingat. All of them! Gila ar. I am in a seriously envious condition to those who already manage to earn their own money. Sekarang ni, kalau tengok duit merah tu pun, boleh meleleh air liur aku...uwaaaa..

To comfort my own feelings, I told myself 'belum ada rezeki' so many times. And now, I guess my own heart doesn't seem to believe me anymore. It rather says, 'No pain, no gain' to my brain, which obviously change the way I look at myself. Since my final result didn't turn out as good as I expected, I see myself in a different way now. It was such a great wake-up call to me. Maybe I had forgotten to stay grounded and be grateful enough for every kurniaan-Nya. My final result? Nah...I let this one go - easily. No pressure, cos I know I'm not a failure. I had a great years before, gained everything without even have to work hard to earn them. And now, I had to work harder to earn them back. To earn the feelings I had before. To always feel good about myself and make my loved ones proud.

Btw, I really miss my boyfriend. Glad I can call him that after all of the struggles. Despite all the differences, I've decided to work things out between us. Always hoping this relationship will ended with happiness for both of us. Even though marriage is the one last thing I can hope for, I'm glad I love him even more everyday. *blush*

My heart sang dis...

...You and I by Park Bom (2ne1). Beautiful song. Beautiful mv. Beautiful voice. Beautiful Park Bom. Perfect! Dedicate to him. But I heart this version of Moa better. Sorry Park Bom. :) But I still heart the mv. Huhuhu.